I read a post from a guy that stated that depression is a choice. Suicide is a choice. That you are not free. And a few other things that got my blood to boil. This is all due to Robin Williams committing suicide. The passing of Robin Williams has been hard on myself and many around the world. He was hilarious and a great guy. He brought so much joy to so many people. I grew up watching his movies and now my kids are being brought up watching him. To the world he looked like he lead a good life. He was always funny and upbeat. But it was all just a front to hide the real him. He was obviously in a deep dark place to be able to commit suicide. I read that 121 million people have depression. I like them do have depression and anxiety. I also have BPD or borderline personality disorder. I have struggled for many years with this. I've been to many therapists. I've been admitted to the hospital 3 times because of suicidal tendencies. I've been in holes so deep and so dark that I can barely move. It eats at you. Destroys relationships and friendships. It drains you and allows you to do nothing. I have never "chosen" to be in those dark holes. Why would I or anyone else? I don't do it for the attention. I will gladly take no more dark holes. I don't think anyone chooses to get that low. Robin Williams just proves that the fame or being rich or being one of the happiest guys doesn't always bring you happiness. There was obviously something else bigger going on behind closed doors. Yea sure suicide is a choice and it is a selfish thing to do but sometimes one feels that is the only option. Some people don't know where to begin to tell someone and get help. Some don't have the resources to get help. Some people try to get help and don't receive it. When I'm at my darkest I don't seek help. I don't have the motivation to do so. But my friends and family know when I'm getting low and they put 110% effort into getting me out and not allowing myself to commit suicide. And I'm thankful everyday that they have been there to help me more than once. I believe that when you die from suicide Heavenly Father shows love and compassion towards you and you are still welcomed into Heaven. Some will say you just go straight to hell but I don't believe he would do that to his children. He knows the pain and struggle they are feeling. He knows the circumstances around your choice. And yes you are free from the pain and suffering when you die. You are whole and perfect again. Some might disagree with me and that's fine. I know that He is there when I need Him and He knows the way I am feeling. As he does for everyone. The guy that wrote the paragraph also said it is not a disease. And he is correct on that. It is a mental disorder. But it does control you. Its not like cancer when its something physically wrong with your body. It's not an easy thing to deal with though and about 30,000 Americans commit suicide each year. 1 in 65,00 kids between 10 and 14 commit suicide. Those are sad numbers. The number one reason for suicides is depression. Once again it is NOT a choice. I'm sorry if you fell like it is. I hope that this will bring a lot more much needed attention to suicide and allow compassion towards these people and their family and friends. I hope you and anyone else doesn't have to deal with depression.
These articles are a good one to read.
http://www.buzzfeed.com/alexisnedd/things-nobody-tells-you-about-being-depressed
http://www.save.org/index.cfm?fuseaction=home.viewPage&page_id=705D5DF4-055B-F1EC-3F66462866FCB4E6
