Rambles

My intent in this post is not to offend anyone and if it does then sorry I guess. Speaking my opinion and what I believe. I have been watching teen mom and 16 and pregnant a lot since we got cable. I don't know why I do. Everytime I do it just pisses me off. Obviously these kids didn't get the no sex till marriage or use birth control memo. And that's fine cuz not everyone belives that or thinks its the right thing to do. I'm not judging there. It just...i guess bugs me most that theses kids weather it be the mom and dad or just mom decide oh im still in jr high, for some, and have no money or job or anything really yet they decide to keep the baby. And they just act like its gonnna be a walk on the park and once baby is here nothing will change. They have a huge surprise coming. I just really wish they would be smart and give these babies up for adoption and give them a chance. There have been a couple of moms who heaved and those kids seem to be doing the best. Not in a home where, like recently mom is in jail, dad and mom are split, moving multiple times cuz they can't afford places, etc. Even being married and "old" enough its a challenge. When I was in the ER the guy doing my iv and I were just chatting and he mentioned that he and his wife of 3 years have been trying to have kids and nothing. He told me he found out it was his fault
So they were looking into adoption and invetro. But yet druggies and little kids can get pregnant the first time. (i have friends in the teenage not married category. Once again not judging) I know there's a plan for each person but I just don't understand. I feel bad for this guy. His wife is baby hungry and he is really wanting to be a dad too. But for whatever reason makes him not be able to have kids they have to fork out thousands of dollars, time, and emotional times just to have a family. Sucks. The main reason I got pissed lately was because one of the girls on the show had a baby and then her anf her bf just decided no bc at all and got pregnant again. AGAIN!!! But this time she just decided to abort. She didn't wanna deal with pregnancy. Yea well should have kept your legs closed
Instead of giving that baby to a desearving daily who wants that child they just aborted it. Abortion sickens me!! I don't think abounded should ever be aloud to but once again free rights and agency. When I was in the hospital waiting for my surgery all I could think of was my unborn baby girl. I haven't held her or met her or seen her other then an ultrasound and yet I was bawling at the thought of loosing her. From the day I found out I was pregnant, both times, I was attached to that baby. I can't imagine loosing them. Point of my ramble is if ur gonna have sex u might get pregnant. And if u get pregnant then deal with it. If you can't handle your consiquence then give the baby a chance and give em up. Be selfless not selfish! Sure there are days when pregnacncy is no wall in the park but hey its a sacrifise. Sure we didn't plan on getting preg w tristan on our honeymoon even on bc but hey we did and its all apart of a bigger plan. Im glad we had him. Life would be boring without him. K. My ramble is done.

Merry christmas I guess

Well I have some time to spare. Im laying in the er at the american fork hospital. (on drugs and cell phone so disregaurd spelling and other mistakes. Im trying) Been here since 12:45 christmas night. This is exactly where I wanna be...NOT!!! I have been having side pain since about thursday. Thought it was maybe muscle pain and blew it off. But it has only gotten worse as the hours pass. At my moms house for dinner I had her poke around and I wanted to die. When I got home I talked to a friend who works at the hospital and after a long disscusion and having john poke and hurt me she said go to er just to be safe. So here I am. I got t outta bed and had john take me in. The dr said I will most likely be here all night waiting for mri so they should go home and rest. So I sent em home. Id much rather be snuggling my stinker them laying here alone but he needs his sleep. The nurse came in to put my iv in and the plastic part on the needle snapped and the needle poked through. It killed and definately took my mind away from the side pain. So he pulled it out and ventured too my let arm. Well lets just say my left arm and needles don't mix. More then the fact that I just don't like em. But for whatever reason my arm has a mind of its own. I am so uncomfortable with it in my left arm. I had to wait for a ultrasound tech. And a mri tech to come in since it was 2 am. Mri are torture for me. I feel trapped and itchy, especially on drugs. So that half hour I wanted to dle. Dr came in a little bit ago to inform me I need to have surgery to get apendix taken out. I called john and lost it. Im terrified. Not gonna lie. Why is it happening while I'm pregnant?! Merry christmas I guess. So now I just lay here and wait another two hrs. My mom should be here shortly and she's having chris come give me a blessing. Im tired and starving. I want time to hurry up so I can get it over with. On a brighter note we found out we are having a girl. Which tristan told us we were a little bit ask so it was just a confirmation. I am so excited to be having a girl. John on the other hand is terrified to have girls. Also Chris was able to come home from iraq for two weeks. He hours back next week but its awesome to have him home for christmas. He becca and zoe were able to get seemed last tuesday in the logan temple. Id post pictures of baby but can't at the moment.

Dude? Really?!

This is promised to be an interesting post. Im going to start out with the wife(trinity) and mines "adventure" last night. Around 5 pm Trin, Tristan and I headed out to BFE Vernal to pick up her kids who were with grandma. Its like a 2 1/2 drive. Tristan pretty much fell asleep right away and I dozed off for a little bit. On the way out it was pretty uneventful. Well ok thats a lie. Trin and I NEVER have a dull moment together. We basically talked and made fun of nowheres ville and were just well, being us. When we FINALLY arrived at her moms Tristan was excited to get out and play with Kelton. But Kelton was feeling really really sick so T chashed cats instead. We were there for a couple of hours and those hours were nothing but laughing and snorting. Her mom and step dad are awesome and yet crazy. In a good way. After a couple of hours and torture to both of us from her cats and our allergies we were on the road again. She got mad at me earlier for not telling her about a lot of things and "opening up" to her since she's my wife and I should. So I did. We talked for most of the drive. We got to Strawberry Reservoir (for you Utah people) and about 10 minutes to Heber. We were going pretty slow since there was a crap ton and a half of deer, moose and Elk that decided to be very close to us. Trin made a comment that we were going to hit a deer. I responded "Hit a deer I pee in your car." Her response "You pee in my car I pee in your face...i mean...you get what I mean." Which started a laugh fest. We keep chugging along slowly and all of a sudden Mr. Kelton decides to throw up. A LOT!! So Trin pulls off to the side of the road. My thought...we are screwed. She stops and we slid a little bit more into the snow. We help Kelton and by this point this pregnant lady is going to explode if she doesn't go to the bathroom PRONTO. My door is snowed in. So i jump out the driver seat and relive myself. Now I am FREEZING!! Trin leaves me standing in the road in the dark on this highway with crazy deer so she can try and rock the car. It just gets stuck more. Neither of us have service. After awhile I see headlights and stand up on the seat to flag this person down. A guy stops and is first worried we hit an animal. Nope just a barfy child. He said he can try and help push. Well together Trin and I make a 10 yr old. Im pregnant and she has a broken hand. So we are not much help. After a while more of no such luck and semi after semi passes us and freezes us more the guy flags a car coming in the opposite direction. Car slows and rolls window down. I see a woman. I turn to Trinity "we are screwed. Its another woman." Was I WRONG!!! This lady gets outta the car, basically tells the guy shes got this and starts digging out snow. I mean on hands and knees digging and getting snowy. Trin and I look at eachother and our jaws drop. She stands up gets in the car and starts rocking. It worked for a min but then slid. Meanwhile Kelton is in the car looking as miserable as he feels and Tristan is SCREAMING his head off. Im STARVING and shaky and wife is cold. So wonder woman asks the guy if he has any rope or anything. He has some small tie downs and they hook that to the car. Her car is a Hyundai. I was surprised she was gonna try with her car and not ask for the guys SUV. So she pulls and it snaps. Tries again. made it move but snapped. After second snap a truck started slowing and pulled over ahead of us. He was pulling a jeep on a trailer so he had bigger tie downs. They hook em up and out comes the car. First guy leaves and The lady starts to slowly pull away. Well we still weren't completely un-stuck. So she pulled for a min and we were free. We thanked both and we on our way. We started our again slow descent down the canyon with more animals. We made it almost out of Provo canyon and Kelton starts throwing up and choking on it. Not good. We pull off luckily there is no snow this time. Quickly help him and were off again. About 1/2 mile up the road the big truck guy was pulled over waiting till we passed just to make sure. It was really really nice of him and he didn't have to but we sure appreciated him doing so. We FINALLY got home after 1 am. I was exhausted and still starving and even though I should have I didn't eat. I was way to sick feeling to do so. I passed out as soon as I hit the bed. Tristan was hyper like someone gave him drugs. Needless to say it was one of the best days ever. Even though we got stranded. As least some amazing people stopped to help.