hey howdy ho

Life has still been crazy for us. We finally got rid of out kitty. She went to a great family and they love her. I'm so happy and a lot of stress was lifted off my shoulders. Tristan is walking a lot faster and loves to play at the park and play with george and throw balls for him. George is his best bud. Tristan is still being a stinker. I fall more in love everyday with him. He likes to stand up in bed in the morning and do a high pitched scream. Its funny and annoying at the same time. He thinks its funny though. John is in his his second quarter in school. He studying math now. (Gag) he comes home and says his brain hurts. I'm just glad its not me :D on Tuesday I have to go to a dr to see when I am gonna be getting surgery to remove a cyst in my left breast. It has been beyond painful!!!!! if something barely touches it I wanna cry! Also we finally got our mold situation taken care of. The only thing left that needs to be taken care of at our place is our roach problem and the people upstairs from us. For the past 2 weeks they have been VERY LOUD!!! They come home at night get their deed done and leave. We never see them during the day. Its akward and gross and I'm sick of it!!!! Till nexttime.

My monkey no feel good

Since last post Tristan has gotten sicker. We took him on monday to see the Gastro Dr on Monday. In a nice nut shell he told us we need to basically clean his out and get his golf balls out then keep him on Mira lax to keep it regulated. Let me just say it was a BLAST for johnny and I to have to do this. And Tristan loved it too. NOT!!!! It was the most horrible experience EVER!! It was so hard to see my baby in pain like that. I wanted to cry. But I had to keep it together and hold him and make him feel ok. At the same time of this he has a high fever and was shaking and sweating from that. Tuesday morning I took him to the ER cuz he had almost a 104 fever and Tylenol and ibuprofen weren't bringing it down. He was sweating buckets and couldn't sleep unless he was in a ball on one of our chests. It was horrible. At the hospital they finally got his fever to break. They also found out that he has a pretty bad ear infection. After we left there he was basically out. When he was awake he just sat there moaning and looked like he was high. It was horrible. The only good thing about a baby being sick is that they are sooooo cuddly and cute. But I hate him being sick. He was fine until this morning when he woke suddenly with a fever and in obvious pain. I just hope he gets better quick. It breaks my heart seeing him like this!!!



My favorite pic! On his bday

First cupcake

And second

Amazing bday cake by Trisha

And his smash cake by me

Trisha workin hard

I smashed his face in his cake :D

I d k what this face is but I am in love!!

His little hip walk

Little stinker climbed up on this unsteady desk

Hi

Hey all who read this. We dont have internet and when we get internet I always forget to update. Life fr us Terry's is CRAZY!!!! Tristan turned one. He got the flu the day after his party. He then gave it to me. And by the end of the week John finally got part of the flu. He sucks for not getting it as bad as T an I. After I was kinda feeling better I came down with Bronchitis again. The same day I got that John was at work and passed out and fell on the ground. The paramedics came and took him b ambulance to the er. was stuck at home with the baby ad no car and was freaking out the whole time. I finally got to the hospial as they were releasing him. They said it was a combo of stress, no sleep, and drinking an energy drink on an empty stomach. His naggy wife keeps telling him he needs to eat and not just drink energy drinks. I still have my cough. Tristan is over his flu but moved onto a tooth coming through, walking and constipation still. We go on monday to see a specialist and hopefully get some answers. So until next time.

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So us Terry's have been very busy. Johnny started school in the beginning of December. Our computer is STILL broken. Hopefully I will get it tomorrow. We FINALLY moved to Provo. My mom and family FINALLY moved back to Utah. Tristan is growing and will not stop. He will be 1 in February. I found a kitty and cant seem to get rid of her because we have all, including the dog, come to love her crazy self. She fits right in. Enjoy some of the recent pictures.

We are still alive....kinda

Um......yea. So its been....A WHILE!!!!!! Where to start? Mr. Tristan is now 10 months old, has 6 teeth and is CRAZY!! We knew he would be. I mean look at who his parents are :D He is crawling like no other. Hes getting into EVERYTHING!!! He thinks he is old enough to walk and walk up the stairs. But he doesnt quite understand the whole getting back down thing. At night or nap time he sticks his butt up in the air and wiggles around and flops back and forth. Half the time hes completly out. Hes my funny kid. He also recently got a yeast infection. It was more panful for me then him. Johnny started school today at I.T.T Tech in Murray. He is going into web design and video programing. I love my little nerd. I have still been dealing with my usual problems. Then some. My migraine went away fo a little while. Then 2 weeks ago they started again. I had to et another MRI on friday for a follow up. It was horrible. They were supposed to give me meds for sedation...but...they didnt. The did an iv and drew blood and put saline in me but no meds. About 5 mins into the scan I started feeling claustrophobic ad started having a anxiety attack. So i pushed my little ball to have them stop and all he said was its almost over. Um...30 min later and I had to go get a xanax. I was furious. I actually started crying!!! Ive also gotten another UTI and followed with a yeast infection. Our laptop screen is broken so no pics. But soon it will be a picture overload.

The pig has attacked!!!!!!!!!

Yes. Tristan and Johnny have been struck with Swine Flu. Tristan got it first way bad and then johnny started feeling symptoms. Tristan started out with a 102 fever and it only got hotter and hotter. He reached 104 at one point. They got him started on tamiflu, tylenol, and motrin. Then on fri he wasnt eating or having wet diapers. So after trying to get him liquids we finally tool him into the er. They got him on some anti nausea meds and finally got him to eat. Now his only problem is not being able to breathe. He is so congested. We are slowly just getting through it. Lets hope I can keep staying clear of it. I need to take care of my two babies :D For Halloween I found a elephant mask and it was the most amazing thing bought for .50 cents. Ha. Tristan was my skeleton. I ept calling him skeletor. Johnny was a swine flu victim. haha. He wasnt feeling up to dressing up. George was a football player. Because of the sicklings we only took pictures. I just realized I took my sleep pill and Im starting to slowly go. One last thing. I recieved another concussion last night. Ill explain in details next post. Lets just say it involves a rusty nail, a chicken and my head :D

Be prepared for a long one.......

Since my last post a lot has happened. In the last one I mentioned my depression and how its getting bad. Well its only gotten worse. I have had a lot of different stressor's on my plate. Then I talk with a friend and a whole ton of stuff was brought up and I think it just threw me over the edge. I started feeling very suicidal last wed night. I wasn't feeling emotionally suicidal just chemically. My heart was saying its not worth it, your family and friends love you, Tristan needs you, it's selfish. But my brain was saying your worthless, no one needs you, take some pills, drive off the mountain, go die. I knew deep inside I wouldn't do anything but then again the feeling was so strong to do so. I was at the time staying in Heber with a friend and she talked me outta being dumb and kept me sane. But I left her place without saying bye and when she texted all I said was I still wanted to die. She said get to a hospital or Im calling the cops. And stubborn me told her to screw off. Only making matters worse. I blew up on her and said a lot of things I shouldnt and now we arent speaking. She wants time but its hard cuz shes my bestie. But time is what she wants and I'm gonna respect it. If you read this Im sorry I said those things and still want to be friends. If youll have me back that would be awesome. If not, I understand. Anyways. So I went to John's work and sat and talked with him and then we went to a park to talk. I also let my dr office know what was going on and waited for my dr to call back. We got home and she finally called. I told her what was going on and she said: either go pick up these pills I called in or go to the hospital. Well once again Im stubborn. So I basically told her no I wasnt going to go in. But then while taking a shower with Johnny I broke down crying and had a strong feeling to go in. So I got ready, got a blessing and said bye to the family. While I was doing so, I got a text from sperm donor and it made me go ballistic. I was so beyond pissed that he would text me after I told him never to talk to me again. Johnny drove me up to Provo e.r. and then we sat there from 7 pm to 1 am waiting. I finally went upstairs to start my 4 day journey of getting new meds, talking with counselors, group therapy, and healing. It was honestly worth every dime, time and effort put into it. It was hard Im not gonna lie and my depression is still kinda here but it helped a lot. I have to say I was honestly the sanest person there. My problems felt like nothing compared to some of the stories I heard. I made a couple of new friends whom are going threw kinda the same thing. They are awesome girls. I want to say a special thanks to hubs for being there evey day when you were aloud to be and calling and being supportive even though I know it was hard. Also thanks to those who stopped by or called. Also those who kept us in your prayers. It means a lot. Since getting out I have a ton of stress, which of course is alwyas gonna be there. I handeled one BIG stressor. His name is Mark and is my "dad". I went to the cops and told them all thats been going on and told him to leave me alone or I can slap a stalker report and phone harrasment on him. Hopefully he will get the picture. One down. More to go. I start therapy on monday in provo and will be going to another one here in town. Im also on new meds which are so far good. As far as Tristan goes, I came home and he is fully crawling. UH-OH!!!! He climbs stairs too. He so much fun though. His K-9 wasnt actually his K-9. He has his top left front tooth and the one next to that and is getting the two on the other side.His smile is funny. I think he should be a vampire for halloween. Below are some pics from bath time, Johnny and Tristan with crazy after a hard day hair, and my new hair cut and color. Anyways my sleep med is kicking in so until next time.